i think the most difficult thing to do is to talk to my family. especially during times like this. not many people know of my blog, but every one of u that reads it know what kind of person i'm like. i like to handle problems on my own, i don't like to have people worry for me.

it's my mum's birthday today, and we skyped. it sucks that i have to break news to her that tomorrow is my review board, just to let her be mentally prepared if i get suspended. what a birthday surprise. i feel kinda useless that i had to do this.

after, i chat with my dad, and everything went on fine.

all of a sudden he asked me "how, disappointed or not?"

and i felt tears come to my eyes. "of course" i replied.

and he carried on to say it's not the end of the world, don't think too much. keep him updated about the good news tomorrow because any news to him is also good news.